Breaktime…

Hello to you who are reading this.

I hope you find yourself in a good place this evening. I hope everything is working for the best in your life, whether we know it or not. That’s what I believe in. I do believe that whatever powers you believe in are working for the benefit of your life. That’s what I feel is true about the powers that be. Amen.

Power. A word thrown around, given to certain people sometimes for us to believe they have something we do not. It’s funny and strange in a way, to think we don’t have power over our own lives. Amen.

For now, I feel I am using my power to consciously take a break this week from all the teaching I’ve been doing. I know I could say, “Well, Travis, you only have five days off, and then it starts all over again.” But, then, would I really be taking a break? No. In my mind, I aim saying to my students that’s it time to really do our own thing, each individually.

Now, I don’t want you to get the idea I’m not enjoying my teaching experience anymore, because I am. But, I think it’s normal to be excited about a break from the normal activities we’ve been absorbed in. I mean, I’ve been teaching a great deal recently.

Ah, today I had a student in tears, saying she didn’t want to have lessons anymore with me. I asked her what it was about, and I think it had something to do with what I’m trying to teach her, which is to take violin more seriously. True, she’s only a freshman in high school, but I feel she has some gifts that could be used for the positive influence of others through music. But, alas, when I mentioned to her that violin and viola was my passion, she said she didn’t relate in that way. So, I learned something. Maybe she’s not the right student for me. I teach students who are passionate about music and are willing to listen to the encouragement I give them. Encouragement to grow as people and musicians.

Whether she decides to continue with me or not is completely up to her, but I feel something inside of me that is trying to propel her forward. Amen. That said, we’ll see what happens with that. I recognize my power to help her along the way, but also my lack of power to make the decision for her. Amen.

That said, I remember the times I have had with certain dreams of the past. It was difficult to look around and ask (all the wrong people) what I should do with my life. I just remembered today how precious our power is to each of us. Our power to make decisions for ourselves without having to wonder who will tell us what to do with our lives.

And now, I am remembering from my reading sessions, that some people feel that we have these things called internal guidance systems. These systems, tethered to the source of our power, guide us through life with each passing moment. Amen.

It is true, in my journalling I have been following my guidance system for some time. Amen. And now I have this wonderful job and more exciting things on the way. But, I had to let go of some major dreams soaked in grubby hands, hands clenching onto something in order to find something else.

I have realized that there’s no reason to clench onto anything, saying that by holding onto something, I will be a happier person. To me, that is an attempt at controlling life, which is inherently free, according to what I have read.

So, I sit here, writing to you, with so much to say about life that I feel I am overflowing with love for life and for you. Amen.

Interesting, now I am thinking about my cards. How can I get them out to you. How can I utilize my love of creation to earn a living in this world that we live in? And that’s it, I will utilize my love of creation to fuel my life. Amen.

Money is an interesting thing. It’s used in exchange, I believe. So, my idea is to continue to offer these things that I love (teaching, playing, art, cards, songwriting, superficial furniture design) and see what comes in life. My thought is that the right amount of money will be provided in order for me to continue doing what I love.

My hope is that I continue to grow as a person. Amen. This growth will be reflected through my expression in my creations, and you can witness it that way. Amen.

Is this anything new? No. I feel that expressing our creative side has been happening for as long as we have been alive. Amen.

Anyway, what things are you doing to express who you are in the moment? Amen. Let me know, I’d love to talk about it with you.

Peace,

Travis